Already, I have been unable to bring myself towards another being in order to strike up a conversation. My problem is I have yet to come up with my guiding questions. What is it that I want to learn from people? Do I need
I am sure right now everyone who reads these posts knows me on a face to face basis. Eventually, people will read this post who do not know me at all, only through what i write on here. So then, here is a little about me. I live in San Jose, Ca. I have lived here since 2009, and before here I lived in the Santa Cruz area. Before that, I lived in Soledad, and before that blah blah. I currently work in the casino business, in a place called Casino M8trix. My job is to watch people gamble, win or lose, and either pay them or collect their losings. Sadly, people mostly lose, and sadly even more, it is usually the same people losing every day. Come to think of it, I think I am getting pretty tired of watching all these people lose their money. Unfortunately, I am paid by my company to take their money so that my salary and all my coworkers salaries can be paid as well. This is a backwards type of service, where the people paying are not getting any tangible object, or useful service out of their money. All they get is a hope of hitting it big, but the reality of this business is not the short term gains or losses, it is the long term LOSS.
We have all been in this situation, where we gain little but lose lots. I have been living this situation for quite a while now, and now more than most times. What I need is to get myself out of this situation. Hurry now, I tell myself, help myself and others. Depression is much too much of a word for what I feel, maybe what I am looking for is remorse. Do I need to repent for my willingness and desire to starve people of their money so that I can please my boss? These gifts I have are wasted, where in my daily live to I help others? I say nowhere.
Here I think is my chance. If I find ways to get to know other people, share myself with them, and share ourselves with my readers, I believe I can create something astound. There are millions of people within miles of me, but I only know dozens, and of these dozens, only a few do I know really well. Give me time, and day by day, one by one, I will get to know everybody there is to know.....
Interesting Joe. I think there is a common goal of people to know more people around them but where is the line of knowing someone well and just knowing someone? That is a quesiton that I pose to you.
ReplyDeleteWe can never know how well we know another, especially when we often ask ourselves how well we even know ourselves. Often I lack the tools to develop questions that will help me know another, and even more pressing is the courage to ask the questions that I have already come to bringing myself curious about. Knowing some little is better than not knowing someone at all, that is a start. Over time I hope to learn more faster, and hopefully get skilled enough to know someone well to my own satisfaction.
ReplyDeleteThis blog might end up being too deep for me.....
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